Never Again....

Today we made the decision to put a bandaid on a gashing wound as a temporary fix....metaphorically speaking of course. I think the important thing was not so much as the details of the decision rather that we made it together as a team. It's been a long time since we did that. Maybe this is the turning point in our relationship, the relationship of our family too. It's no longer his or mine but it's really ours.

This month so far has been difficult. But little by little, I'm watching God work in our lives. We are changing separately and together, somehow our relationship is becoming more cemented. Guess we'll see where this goes.

I was at my church earlier today. Everyone was in a short prayer meeting and the Pastor was giving a devotional of sorts. Something he said struck a cord in me as if God had intended me to be there exactly at that time to hear what he had to say. Courage is being scared to death and still moving forward despite your fear. Maybe I have courage or I'm discovering the extent of my courage. Only time will really tell.

On that note, I think I'll end. I've been itching to start a new writing project. Better get started on that. After all, there really is no time like the present.

Speaking of time...

Today is officially my 10 year wedding anniversary. I made a decision and I'm quite happy with my decision. I had originally requested the day off and it was approved. But then due to some bureaucratic nonsense, I didn't have time so I didn't make any plans. Then the universe and the agency HR actually returned the time back to me. But in the midst of working hard and the stress, I completely forgot to check with management if it was still ok for me to take the day off. So just found out, it's not because I changed my mind and then changed it back. But I made a decision this morning to celebrate the day with my husband and son, just the three of us together. Later I'm meeting my parents and having lunch with them. I will not let a little annoyance take away from me the rest of this beautiful day.

Going back to my original reason for posting again after over a year of silence: it's the beginning of a whole new decade for me and my little family. Looking back on the past 10 years I am amazed at God's grace. We've made it this far. The next leg of this journey is a wide open road. We have goals and ambitions that have lain dormant for the last decade and have slow began to emerge in the last year or so. This is my way of taking this journey and keeping myself accountable. After all, a lie of omission is still a lie isn't it? I was here, at the beginning of the journey and I'm excited to see where it will take me.

Ten years ago, on this day, 17th of March, the greatest adventure of my life began. The person sitting here writing this is a far cry from the young woman who began this journey. Enough rambling for now. I'm off to the park to enjoy the rest of this beautiful day.